the smoldering that used to be

off to boston tonight to spend a night. tomorrow i'm wakin up wikkid early for it roadmap boston. woot.

gonna be a smexxy looking bunch at this event as we are joined by our new teammates.

i'll be the tall chick in the high heels and biz suit. heh.

i have a delicious cobb salad in front of me, with avocados.
i have sun & SPF.
i have someone to warm my bed.
i have a slightly smaller inbox than i did a few hours ago.

this could be happiness, this could be known to me like my own skin in the dark.

where am i? this bunny is in beautiful palm desert.
what event? the DEMO conference.

the mountains in the distance are amazing.

wish you were here. i would share this all with you.

"happiness is best when shared."

(:3

the spice must flow!
the websites must be perfect!
the registrations must be counted!
she who controls the registration, controls the universe!

for i am the kwisatz hader-rabbit!

so, traveling again this week.
(:3
i plan to storm the nation's capitol.
then, i will go to alcatraz.

then back to faire.
(won't be there on satyrday though...)

bunny go ZooooooooooooooooooooooooooMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

ticket to seattle is booked!

i arrive on friday night august 8th at 10.30PM.

now taking tourist suggestions and visitation requests. (:3

thanks to oxma for putting up with me putting me up for a few nights.

i'll be working by that monday, so i only have the weekend.

my work has some cool articles on their website.

like this one: sci-fi's goofiest gadgets

heh.

holy bejeebus it's been a whirlwind of a month. and we're only one day in! ...no really, the past few weeks have been crazy....but tomorrow i fly off to wisconsin for vacation. hooray!

thursday night there is supposed to be a dinner somewhere, but likely in beaver dam, so i'm not sure i'll get to see many of youse wisco guys. otherwise, tomorrow is tattooing, friday is the rehearsal, satyrday the wedding, sunday is a possible wife sighting (yay!...must call wife...).

i'm bummed i wont be going to the inferno as my captain chalkhorsegirl will be going and its her last funtimeparty night out there before she heads back to MA. so anyone out and about on satyrday sees a hawt red headed pirate chick...tell her her quartermistress lurves her.
(:3

anywho, if anyone wants to call and find me while i'm there, feel free!

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trying to finish up my list of things to do before heading out of here today. eesh. about half done. thankfully.

further flist update to follow on yesterday's performance.

back to the grind for now!

just wanted to say thanks to all my peeps who wished me a happy birthday. i really appreciate it.
(:3>*


last night was fun (:3
thanks to tiamatlady for driving...and it was cool to see poetman socially as well. i get used to him being bossman so much i forget how fun hanging out can be.
also got to hang with bunnygoth for a bit too. (wow twice in one month!) i dont see her much, so that was cool. visited a bit with strumpetone and her boy also, which is cool as i usually only get to see her during faire.

there were some other peeps i got to see and say hi to also. the dj's were good. i danced. there were beverages of naughtiness plied to me. i danced some more. i felt good.

i am teh sleepy today though. the excel is bleeding digits all over the place. thank the gods for coffee and advil. its whats for breakfast.

i'm working from home today.

yesterday, i left work at 1.30PM.
ask me when i got home......?
9PM.
yup.

let me tell you, it was not one of my prettier moments.

for some reason, i feel like i've been failing to communicate. its not that i cant get the words out...because i do...but that they get trapped in this bubble and dont make it out in one piece...letters and syllables akimbo into the world.

i dont get it.

i really am feeling burnt out. thats the only thing i can put my finger on lately. after 6 months of personal and environmental mess, there is just no more tolerance. i've been laying low for the most part. trying to regroup. trying to reconnect within myself. trying to function like and adult (somewhat). i've been doing okay. but i'm still burnt out.

i've thought a lot about my work history. and how either by my choice or by consequence, i have only ever worked at a place for a year at most (give or take a month) before moving on. the only major difference is the time i spent at eeldrytch. i can only assume that it went as long as it did because it was always a change of scenery or on again/off again. i was part of eeldrytch for a 4 year period.

why is it i cant seem to find a job that works for me? i think maybe i never learned how to buck up and just work even if you dont like it. maybe thats what i'm going through right now. and maybe thats why i'm not happy. i'm merely holding down this job. i'm not thriving in it. i'd like to though. there's just no where to go from here. at least not in the forseeble future.

i guess in the end, i'm really just "whining" about the same thing i've had issues with since most of this year.

dunno.

i know that i'll keep going. mostly cause i think something's gotta give.