rating the lame factor
Apr. 19th, 2004 03:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dredpiratebunnyspent an hour and a half talking to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
creepyoldguy last night...so good to catch up with him...and cause i forgot to ask, how far is it from your place to pittsfield?...just curious....may try to run an errand if its not too far...
....found a pair of super ghetto sunglasses to replace my broken ones...i originally didnt plan to buy any for a long time, but i found a clearance pair for 3 bucks....theyre kind of dorky, but theyre good enough for now...
something ive noticed during conversations with my boyfriend: he hardly ever asks how my day/weekend was (if this question comes, it happens near the end of the phone call)
...thats kind of sucky...just add to list of why i dont feel im a priority...
...mostly im sick of talking about the nothing going on in my life...the job front sucks, im always broke, my car is barely holding together and just about everyone i know thinks i should dump the boy...i just dont feel as if i have anything good to say...
...the only moderately exciting thing i report is whether or not i have a good workout, and if there was any eye candy while im there...
...i want to give back to so many people who have helped me...
...i am way too sexual to be wrapped up in this kind of mundane drama...
...and still i write...its the only thing i think i can do with any clarity...with any consistency...
...if you see me, i am looking for my path...it seems at some point i got away from myself...dont let me miss it....see to it that i have provisions and toilet paper...
creepyoldguy last night...so good to catch up with him...and cause i forgot to ask, how far is it from your place to pittsfield?...just curious....may try to run an errand if its not too far.......found a pair of super ghetto sunglasses to replace my broken ones...i originally didnt plan to buy any for a long time, but i found a clearance pair for 3 bucks....theyre kind of dorky, but theyre good enough for now...
something ive noticed during conversations with my boyfriend: he hardly ever asks how my day/weekend was (if this question comes, it happens near the end of the phone call)
...thats kind of sucky...just add to list of why i dont feel im a priority...
...mostly im sick of talking about the nothing going on in my life...the job front sucks, im always broke, my car is barely holding together and just about everyone i know thinks i should dump the boy...i just dont feel as if i have anything good to say...
...the only moderately exciting thing i report is whether or not i have a good workout, and if there was any eye candy while im there...
...i want to give back to so many people who have helped me...
...i am way too sexual to be wrapped up in this kind of mundane drama...
...and still i write...its the only thing i think i can do with any clarity...with any consistency...
...if you see me, i am looking for my path...it seems at some point i got away from myself...dont let me miss it....see to it that i have provisions and toilet paper...
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wish I could help....
Date: 2004-04-19 05:23 pm (UTC)But rather than stay in a crappy situation... maybe it is time to move on... work with the Leather folks for the summer/fall (do they do any of the CA of FL faires for next Spring?)
I don't know your path, hell for that matter I don't even know my own... but if you're not happy then it's time to do something to fix that. And in the meanwhile, you have friends who care for you and want to help if they can but mostly just want you to be happy.
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Date: 2004-04-20 07:48 pm (UTC)You lay down your path by walking.
-from a plaque on my wall
New apartment or no new apartment, husband or no husband, I'm just as lost as you. It sucks that you'll be around moving your mom on the same weekend we'll be moving. But I'll cross my fingers and wish on the next dandelion that I get to see you then.