ballad for Palle

[dredpiratebunny]

There are no miracles today.
We think so hard to make it happen
But you slowly fade anyway
(As if you meant it
As if you were still a little Loki playing tricks)
Your dreams letting out
Each tiny breath at a time

For you I wonder
How the last moments taste
What words danced on your tongue
Unable to escape
Trapped in dark saliva
And under your eyelids too.

I see you ascend
Lighter with every once of pain
That pours out of your blood
I wonder if you instead saw God
Where you did not expect
The way we saw him in you.

some will say you were too young
but the best warriors are.
some will say unfair
but secretly we know the way of it.
we whisper our prayers anyway
scared to shout them for fear
we offer more a dare.

For you I am certain
There is a throne in valhalla
And if I am questioned of my certainty
I will tell them of your battle
Of the words you left unsaid.
You are the leaf skimming
through the molecules of sky
crisp and crackling
your laughter setting you aloft.
If I speak it...it is truth

Some will say it is a shame
But they did not see how you were
made of light.
some will say you will be missed
but they do not understand that now
you are energy unbound
disseminating into the air we breathe
your ghost arms still embracing
still reaching out.

for your sisters
who feel they have lost the right to walk
who have no third leg to cap the triangle
and now move off the page
parallel and full of tears
for them I build this room
as if my heart might contain the infinite sorrow they have mustered
as if my gravity could help to hold them here.

some will say your poor family
but they are rich beyond knowing
seeded with the gold of every smile from your brilliant face,
kept safely in cupped hands.
Some will say how you suffered
but a warrior knows no other way
and fights tooth and nail for every scar.

But what I say
is that you were beautiful in every way;
that you lived like a cat in a sunbeam;
that if ever it can be said about
anything at all
you were loved.

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actually looking for some feed back on this one, please.
thx!

Comments

[bellebet.livejournal.com]

Okay, this made me cry at work. Good job! (And not meant in a sarcastic way.)

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

thank you *hugs*

[bunnygoth.livejournal.com]

This brought tears to my eyes. It's the most beautiful poem you've ever written. The only thing that took me out of it a bit was the line "If I speak it...it is truth". It's beautiful, but I thought it was the end, and then it kept going. I might replace the ellipse with a comma.

But yeah, this poem is gorgeous.

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

thanks, i made the edit! i agree. (:3

[captain-snarky.livejournal.com]

::sigh::

Just promise me I get to publish you if I ever have any money.

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

thank you darlin. *hugs* and of course!

[wench18.livejournal.com]

If you have no objections, I'd like to print this and lay it on my mother's grave.

It is excellent.

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

by all means, take it if you need it. *hugs*