dredpiratebunny | home again, home again...

...ugh...

yup...happy xmas..or whatever holiday is yours...my messed up brain still sorting through the debris and follicles of my life...luckily the plane ride back to massachusetts was fairly uncomplicated...though i wasnt too sure my luggage would survive the connection in cincinnatti...and for some reason in boston they decided to switch baggage claim thingies half way through the unloading...der...crowded airport full of holiday raged luggage seekers..oy vey....

...i cant say im all that happy about having to stay with my dad, but only because of my human-waste-of-plasma step mother...luckily ill remain fairly busy and out of the house for the time i am here...it always feels so weird there..as if i am 15 again...

...im about at the end of my cash and thats a rough feeling...my elation and determination might finally have left me...all i can think about is finding a job and how im going to manage...was this whole move crazy?...dumb?...yeah, i guess the self doubt has set in...im scared i guess...of not being able to find work...of getting around...how im going to afford being there...i suppose like always ill stick through it...i am really looking forward to having some sense of financial security...not only that, but i wouldnt mind taking some classes again too...maybe relearn french and maybe business admin...something useful...maybe im just feeling old!

...well, im sure i have a dozen more things i could ramble on about but im tired of looking at the screen...