dredpiratebunny | monday meanderings of meaninglessness

....since i will not be gym bound today, i motivated myself to do some stretching and abs on the living room floor, just enough to get my body primed up...already feel a thousand times better...i wish i could be one of those people who can exercise at home..instead i have to leave the house...i like the isolation, and being able to zone out to techno while im pumping...not quite dancing, but same feeling...funny how it takes about 8 months to lose 35 pounds and just 2 months to gain 15 back...how depressing...ive had it...of course this comes at a time when the bane of my chocolate addiction rears its cute little head: cadbury mini eggs...there is a sick genius who invented those puppies...totally my easter candy crack of choice...thankfully they are only out for a little bit each year...

its wrong that i talk about the gym and chocolate in the same paragraph

...at any rate, when i am active enough, i eat less and tend to burn enough of what i put in...definitely going to try to break some bad food habits if i can though...it seems as if i am only eating about one good meal a day...(being with boy doesnt help, he eats terribly!!)

i feel burnt out...and yet its more important than ever that i keep up the woo-hoo...otherwise ill end up back at dad and stepmonster's house...and i really dont want that...being on the road for eeldrytch not so bad, all else, sucky...i will find work...im even considering finding some financial aid for a bartender certification class...not that i really need to put more debt out there, but i think id be pretty good at it...tits get tips and all...