it's only rain that i feel...

[dredpiratebunny]

just sad today.
for no real reason.

maybe its the snow. maybe its the job. maybe its the music i listen to.

i think i am struggling with the fact that it took me so long to get into the record industry, and now that i'm here it seems to be a piece of crap. this is supposed to be the dream come true. and yet i work at a place that is so disgustingly out of joint, how can i not feel this way? i feel like i get all the crap work. maybe that is just how it is to be on the low end of the totem pole, but most days i feel like i am no better than an intern. i know i came in this job with lots of wit and skills, and somehow i am second guessing everything. i used to be organized and thorough...now i feel like i've lost that.

yeah, i could look for another job, but my job history is starting to look pathetic. the only place i've stayed at more than a year is eeldrytch.

or i could stay, and keep waiting for things to get better. in theory, i should be due for a review and raise come march. and maybe this company will have straightened out some by then. i just dont know.

i guess the optimist is in there somewhere still.

i should probably motivate myself to apply for other jobs anyway...just to see what's out there and if i could do it.
i think i'm leaning towards some kind of event planning type of thing. i enjoyed the talent agency work. setting up bizarre events. working in versatile environments. traveling.

something has to change for me.
(:3
well, back to processing invoices...the newest addition to the work load...given to me because the girl whose job it is doesnt want to do it anymore.
woo!

Comments

[guy-todd.livejournal.com]

Hey QMK--can you conatact Ms. Mug Slide and ask her if she wants her sweater, sox, and oil? ;-)

[skullx.livejournal.com]

*HUG* :D

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

thanks muffin!

[bunnygoth.livejournal.com]

*hug* from one bunny to another. No matter how smart and talented you are, the low end of the totem pole, especially in a disorganized company, almost always gets all the shit work. It is teh suck.

Event planning...stressful, but it can really be fun too.

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

yeah, i've done event stuff before...i dont mind that kind of stress...and at least there is a viewable tangible result to the stress...not like here...
der.
(:3

[shadoboxxer.livejournal.com]

*flying hugging tackle!

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

woo-hoo! just what i needed!

[ktpinto.livejournal.com]

First off, I would love to trade weather with you. I make money when there's snow. I'm making nothing with this damn spring-like weather...

Secondly (and I'm speaking from experience now), does your job give you the money and time you need to do the things you want to do (like travel, go to Faires, etc)? In this day and age - sad as it is - that's considered a good job. Besides, you're gorgeous and sexy and all around amazing... if you had the perfect job too, I'd have to kill you... ;>

Thirdly, we will be at Arisia Jan 12th - 14th. Any chance of meeting up with my favorite red-headed Amazon?

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

well, i've wanted to hit arisia for a while, at least to troll the merchant rooms.
i'd like to visit for at least a day...but since i'm trying to get my ass to vegas, i might not pay the admission...but i could be persuaded to meet for dinner or something!
(;3
that would be cool.

[ktpinto.livejournal.com]

Remember, I am doing nothing at Arisia but panels, so I am certain we can find time outside of the con to hang.

I just miss you, that's all!

*persuading*

[dredpiratebunny.livejournal.com]

i suppose it depends on which weekend i'm in PA...need to talk to my friend and find out when we're going.

but duh, of course i want to see you if you're in my neighborhood.
(:3