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dredpiratebunny"too young to hold on,
too old to just break free and run..."
....how true...
....heard from temp agency this morning...no harley job...they went with someone else...of course...though while in the gym, i had a message from clearwing...the company that i wanted to work for in the first place...theyre doing the summer hiring...im just worried it wont start early enough for me to be able to stay for it...clearwing is a stage crew company i worked with a few times at some college conventions...so hopefully he'll call tomorrow....
...did i mention that one of the cool things about my gym is that i can watch the planes landing...kind of inspiring...
..and the puntbucket bitch has declared that even though she owes me, she doesnt think she will pay me...what the fuck?...you dont make an agreement with someone and then back out of it...especially after ive done my part!...she claims my last phone call was rude...though she hung up on me!...i was trying to find out when we could talk, since she was so adamant that it was a bad time...well, now that im not expecting any money from her, im going to let her have it about all the terrible things shes said about me....the kind of stuff i could technically sue for..defamation of character...but im not like that...i just want the $100 and box of girl scout cookies owed me as per our deal...i can even live without the cookies...
otherwise, just freaking out...way too much going on in my head...planning on going to boys this weekend...but im starting to feel we have a very empty relationship...i think we are going to the movies this weekend though..to see hidalgo..but probably only because he wants to see it too...im noticing also that it seems as if its never what i want to do....i cant do another one sided relationship...
...getting into clearwing would forfill my need for travel and for better pay....but im seriously getting afraid to hope for anything after all these job disappointments...i feel crushed...
too old to just break free and run..."
....how true...
....heard from temp agency this morning...no harley job...they went with someone else...of course...though while in the gym, i had a message from clearwing...the company that i wanted to work for in the first place...theyre doing the summer hiring...im just worried it wont start early enough for me to be able to stay for it...clearwing is a stage crew company i worked with a few times at some college conventions...so hopefully he'll call tomorrow....
...did i mention that one of the cool things about my gym is that i can watch the planes landing...kind of inspiring...
..and the puntbucket bitch has declared that even though she owes me, she doesnt think she will pay me...what the fuck?...you dont make an agreement with someone and then back out of it...especially after ive done my part!...she claims my last phone call was rude...though she hung up on me!...i was trying to find out when we could talk, since she was so adamant that it was a bad time...well, now that im not expecting any money from her, im going to let her have it about all the terrible things shes said about me....the kind of stuff i could technically sue for..defamation of character...but im not like that...i just want the $100 and box of girl scout cookies owed me as per our deal...i can even live without the cookies...
otherwise, just freaking out...way too much going on in my head...planning on going to boys this weekend...but im starting to feel we have a very empty relationship...i think we are going to the movies this weekend though..to see hidalgo..but probably only because he wants to see it too...im noticing also that it seems as if its never what i want to do....i cant do another one sided relationship...
...getting into clearwing would forfill my need for travel and for better pay....but im seriously getting afraid to hope for anything after all these job disappointments...i feel crushed...
